Connection

The semester is about over and so much has been thought and done and in such intense level that it's hard to really figure it all out and try to describe.

It has been a good search for inner developments and understanding. Some good talks, some good reads, and a lot of painting. Today though, watching a classmate paint, I felt connected to her working mode, struggling with her own artistic challenges, and then for a brief moment I disconnected from that (who knows how creepy I looked with my eyes on her painting and my brain traveling at light-speed around space and time).

The thought process got to a stage of me understanding a little more why it is that I'm so attracted to such a traditional medium of painting such as oils. Why do I enjoy so much the classical idea of art and it's uniqueness, it's feelings of moment, of the artists' emotions and so forth. There are so many special new things that we've gotten used to deal with every day, digitized forms of art and information that could easily be used to create, deliver and enjoy visual and other types of art. So why stay in the past?

I am in no way against technology. Actually i'd be sort of spitting on the plate that I eat if I were to ever say that I'm against technological innovations. And I think it is exactly because I'm always seeing both the new and the traditional as positive possibilities that it becomes an exciting moment to realize what I did today.

It is only natural of human beings to seek connection. I believe that the ultimate form of connection between human beings is love. Love is a condition that requires action, thought, reason, respect and emotion. I would never say that a website like Facebook is actually a fake way of connecting to other individuals, but I have to say it's incomplete, because it doesn't allow the full experience of being, sharing, relating to one another that actual human interaction will provide, or allow. It's always up to our talents, abilities, knowledge and other human experiences to provide us with connection to others and to the world around us. Reality is perception, and the more we perceive ourselves in others and in everything, the more connected we are, the more real we feel.

On a similar note, I'd like to add a thought on feelings that I had along with this. To try and understand, to explore and expand our feelings, we're not as much getting rid or forgetting our logic, but we're searching for new ways to solve our logical problems with a part of our brain that we don't fully understand, but we trust it and know that in many situations it has helped us do the right thing. I trust whoever trusts their guts, because I can relate with that, and therefore I do that in my art and I trust and enjoy seeing that in people's works.

So connecting requires well developed rational and emotional parts of us to be willing to explore and to find ourselves in others and let others see themselves in us. As a painter, I am not against using digital media to create, and there are many digital artists that I truly admire, my preference for oil paint lies in it's uniqueness. But regardless of the media, of the type of art or whatever product being sold or person you're meeting, the will to connect is the start of a dialogue that could fulfill both parts' interests, and the more truthful it is, the more personally and fully you're able to show yourself, your product, your art, the stronger that connection will be, if it's meant to.

Having an Idea

This past Monday I was talking to Zhaoming about a painting I'm working on. It's a composition with 4 female nudes in the same canvas, with an abstract background and a mix of traditional and expressive treatment to the figures.

We had already been talking about composition and the importance of unifying the image somehow, since in the drawing stage there was no overlapping, so I had worked in creating shapes in the background and overlaps that would make it feel like a single piece. It is a tricky part of designing the painting, it's easy to get "spotty" on it, specially on a big canvas.

Aside from that problem, the next topic of the conversation was my idea. "Do you have a main idea for this painting? I know that you're worried about composition and other painting techniques, but is there an idea that will hold this piece together?". Turned out I didn't really have a good idea for it.

Idea is an important fuel that can exist in different intensities and have more or less effectiveness in adding value to something. But in the end, if it's a good idea, it will always be worth applying it.

Up to that stage, the painting had me thinking about developing my skills, my style, create beauty through abstraction, but even if those can be considered ideas, they can be true for most of the paintings I've done lately. Zhaoming was talking about an idea to make this one painting unique. The ideas I had are good and important to make this painting belong to a group of paintings, probably all of my thesis paintings will have those ideas in them. With that in mind, what I needed to do was be more specific, in order to give this painting the gift of exclusiveness through idea.

Having a more clear idea for the painting was such a good move that it actually boosted my enthusiasm for working on it and it gave me more ideas on how to technically approach the painting.

I decided that movement would play an essential part in the reading of this painting. The variation of very expressive and busy background areas relating to the more sculpted, solid and slow treatment on the figures would represent each of the women's relationship to the same environment. Wherever I emphasize stillness, it could mean that the subject is trying to stay out of the chaos of the environment, and the opposite would be true. If the strokes start to get messy and expressive within the figure, it may mean that she's being affected or going into the chaos that's around.

So that one idea of contrast of movement in brushstrokes really led me to more successful thinking about how to continue working. It gave me new objectives to accomplish and not only the desire to make it look good and beautiful, but the ambition of making my idea show through in the end.

Regardless of it being a greatly elaborated idea or a simple and maybe obvious one, it is always better to have an idea and to use it as a guide. Ideas, just like the painting, will stay along with you, helping you work. They will also probably morph with the painting, developing into something better.

Ultimately, if there are no good ideas to start with, then start with working, and the ideas will appear. Painting will give you good ideas, and ideas will give you good paintings.

The value of an artist and his painting

As a MFA-Painting degree student at the Academy of Art University, San Francisco, I'm required to keep a journal describing my activities, the outcome of my thesis project and the changes in directions and thinking about my art, or art in general.

This semester has started quite well. I'm taking two directed study classes and one elective. Zhaoming Wu is my directed study advisor and the other class is Expressive Painting, with Baoping Chen. I've been having constant conversations with them, regarding my thinking, my work and my direction for the remainder of my school time.

This past week I had a nice talk with Baoping. It was a review of what I've been doing and then a few suggestions and statements about where I should start aiming at in order to further develop my art into a new level of value and meaning.

I have been, for the past year or so, trying to experiment applying non-representative strokes, shapes and colors into what could be considered a realistic approach to painting, specially with the figure. So with that I've seen myself try a set of different techniques and experiment with a wide variety of shapes, painting wet over wet, emphasizing edges, and all of the many concerns one must have with any painting, regardless of style.

I was showing him two paintings of mine, one was an abstract portrait and the other, a quick still life study. The still life was to me definitely more successful since it had a lot of unity in color, enough information to tell those were fruits we were looking at, but still the strokes are very lively and meaningful, making it an exciting painting to look at, regardless of the subject.

Baoping agreed with me and thought the still life was better. He went on about something very important to him, which is one of the true values of an artist and his painting: emotion. It is hard to say that we're not expressing anything on a painting, or that a painting has no emotion. The point was that with the abstract style, the emotion becomes very important, because in traditional realism, an artist might seek to replicate something that was done before, and might get very very close to matching it, or even to the untrained eye, he might achieve it. An abstract painting, when expressive and emotional, is virtually impossible to mimic, for even if they're planned, there's a bit of carelessness on every mark that will influence it's landing on the canvas, there's emotion and motion and thickness and texture that simply can't fully be replicated, not even by the same artist.

The uniqueness that great art requires can obviously be achieved in any style, even the most photo-realistic, but when we're talking about something as subjective as abstract art, expressive or semi-abstract, then it's uniqueness has the potential to be unparalleled. That's a value that has to always be considered while creating art. The unique emotion of that one painting day. The emotion of the artist. The emotion of the canvas' surface.

Also, he said, it is very important to know when to stop. In realism, the painting will tell you when yo stop, which is when it's done. You can fix a little detail, add some light, but if you're going for that perfect representation, then there's always a way to tell, which does require an incredibly well trained eye, but is still a little more clear than with abstract. When abstracting your subject into something totally or mostly interpreted on canvas, then the eye needs to be trained in a slightly different way. Which still requires all the observational training of painting traditionally, but there's probably a higher need of looking at and analyzing your own painting. The subject must be considered and understood, but mostly for inspiration and some information, but in no way will it ever determine the outcome or be decisive in the success of the painting. It's the eye of the artist that needs to be able to critique its own creations and be able to make good decisions on top of whatever shapes and colors are laid out.

It's been a great semester so far and my instructors are definitely pushing me to try harder both with working and with thinking. I believe this particular talk was of great importance an definitely added to my way of perceiving value in my art. I hope it has a similar effect on you and your work.